it bothers me how he thinks i'm being insincere . all of a sudden he stops talking to me. i didn't notice right away. it took me a while. at first, i was really worried. that our friendship would go down the drain. he's my best friend. i thought he was the one thing that wouldn't change. i thought he was the constant in my sea of variables. i DID need him in my life. i COULDN'T imagine my life without him. but day by day, the vision without him becomes clearer. he posts in his blog that if i really cared, i would talk to him first. & i've thought about doing it a million times now. but then again...he obviously doesn't want to talk to me. HE stopped talkingt to me first so why should i grovel at the feet of someone who doesn't care about this friendship anymore ? i'm a stubborn being. i know i am. i'm not gonna cave. & twenty years from now, if he regrets it & wishes we were still friends, it WILL be his fault.
well anyway, enough with that stuff i'm gonna go out & live my life with or without him. i'm gonna have fun. like i did last night (: homecoming was pretty cool. it felt nice to have SOMEONE pay attention to me. to have the warmth of someone's friendship in the palm of my hands. i was utterly flattered. for once, someone gave me the attention i needed.
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Honestly...i dont get it
Isnt he..waiting for you to talk to him?
How come twenty years from now...when you think back and try to remember the person you trust, that you arent friends because of stupid PRIDE?
He cares, he wants you to talk to him, why else would he wait?
If he didnt care, wouldnt it be easier to block you? forget you? Stop talking to you...period?
Please oh please dont preach about how you are the right one here
You two aren't at peace...and I can't help, it isnt my business
But you're a friend, and so is he
I can try to push you in a direction that...you prolly wont regret
Maybe he hinders you, from getting that attention you so want. Instead of saying bad stuff about him...just admit he wasnt right
You want attention right? Tell him, and i'm sure he's the kind that'll go out of his way to do something for the person he loves...maybe im wrong
but...honest
You kids are fun together and with me and steven? (admit it we're similar ._. steven+me=you+kenny)
We're on and off like...a lightswitch?
But...I believe that Steven and I were meant to grow old together, simply because something always draws us back to eachother, and i find reasons to love and hate him..
Isn't that why relationships are fun? You fight, you gamble, and you are happy...
Talk to him...maybe he's too much of a coward to confront you himself
but i really think from the bottom of my heart
That maybe Talking you to him...wont be a regret
Be Bold...Life without Regrets is a free life
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