happy fucking new year

ugh . a new year , a new start . gotta get on with my life . the past three days have been spent sulking . mourning really . but it's time to stop all that . i've isolated myself from the rest of the world for quite enough . my eyes are bloodshot from trying to distract myself with excessive reading . and well...i gotta stop eating junk . sleeping the day away doesn't solve anything either . who cares if HE doesn't love me . i don't need it . thinking about it just makes things worse . it doesn't matter that i've been played . all that matters is that i know how to get up & dust myself off . of course i'm still sad...& of course i still CARE , but i'm just gonna ignore it . i don't need to let it interfere with my life . it's my fault anyway i ALLOWED this to happen . new year, new guys, new life, new attitude .